The Beginning...........

Lets talk about him...
But first, I have to say what this all began... a friend disturbed me, when they said they hated god... and too an extend I believe many people openly and secertly disagree with them... So I created this blog, which is, as you might have noticed if you visited King O'Mauve, which was writen for my friends in humour and joy...
... this too is writen for those I love... I did not tell you, who know me and eventually find yourself here, cause I knew that if you needed to see it, you would find it... Just as I know that some will come here seeking something... I do not claim to have any answers... I only have musings and questions, and a deep love of God and the Circle of my family and friends... I shall lay down exactly what I am, so you don't say you were decieved, I am a Catholic, a Christian for those of you who do not believe those two things are the same... its from this place that I talk

What do we speak of when we speak of god? Creator? Lawgiver? Savior? King? ... or do we see a sinister dark emporer, demanding of sacrifice and pain... for me, and maybe I am nieve, God was certianly not a bad thing... I have no great testimony to give you though... for from the beginning he was there, watching and guilding, and most importantly loving me... He watched me grow and stayed with me in pain and joy... no matter what I did, he was there, knowing that it would not be long till I returned home... he was my first and greatest friend, and my example of how to love... So yes, for me God is a Creator, Lawgiver, Savior and King, he is all of these things and more... but these labels pale in the face of the Love of God... their are no words to describe what he feels for us...
"Verywell," you say, "but where does the pain, suffering, and evil come from?"... I could tell you stories about apples and snakes... but at the heart of the matter there is a simple truth... all of Humanity is called to Love each freely, just as God as Loved us... we are not made to Love, we must choose it for ourselves, there could be no cheep tricks, no robotical beings made to automatically choose love freely, there had to be a real choice... the fact of the matter is that if we do not choose love, we in stead choose something different, a darker vision of the universe... one where the poor are ignored and the powerful rule without bound... But this world must exist, there must be a option, and we must understand what the effects of a lack of love are... we must be able to confront the face of evil... only then can you truly Love your man, if you know what evil is, apathy, hatred, despair, and faithlessness...
I can't offer you a perfect world... I can't give you answers to everything that happens to you... I can say nothing that can fix the world because of a blog... I can only play on some simple themes that can help people....hope, faith... and the greatest virtue... Love...

Humility, Confidence and Forgiveness

What does it mean to be humble? What does it mean to be confident? They seem opposites. But are they. There are people who seem to know everything that they want; they seem completely sure of themselves. Are they confident? There are people who believe themselves to be less then the dust on the earth, who do not see themselves as worthy of even the most modest praise? Is this humility?
We have to let go of these backward ideas about our self image. Confidence and humility are co-dependant on each other, they need each other. Ultimately, confidence has reached its greatest power when the individual is free to critically assess ones life, reconizing his flaws and mistakes, without falling into despair. Can you be so humble to realize that you may not realize how wonderful you are? Can you have enough confidence to reconize those wrongs you have done?
Look into that mirror, see yourself for what you are, flawed and beautiful. It does not mean you don't try to improve yourself, its not simply an 'acceptance'; it is a true and honest awareness. And when you finally reach that point, you can honestly seek forgiveness from those that you hurt. At that point, you shall realize the truth; you seek the forgiveness not simply to help your own soul, but their soul as well; as much as we need to seek forgiveness, sometimes we also need to get it, to close the door on our pain. And while your at that, when was the last time you forgave yourself. I'm not being silly, its something we all need to do; we hurt ourselves at least as much as we hurt each other. Look into that mirror, and seek your own forgiveness. Go to your priest, your friends, your family, ask them for a little forgiveness. It will set you free.

Simple, Impossible, Demanding you Attention

What kind of world do we want to live in? A world of freedom, a world of love, a world where there is oppertunity and growth, a world were one can live peacefully? Or a world of tyrranny, of oppression and sorrow? Few want the latter (although I have meet some who claim to indeed want this: I am not god, so I am not in a position to call them liars) and most would say they want the former. But do we really live in that world. No, of course not. There is far too much hatred going around in this world. When we are faced by the ultimate tragedy of mankind; the solution is, if I might steal the words of a wiseman, "Simple and impossible." However, at the same time, it "demands you attention."
The solution is this; stop being jerks. Simple. Impossible. Let me rephrase that so that you understand fully, for that is purely the negative aspect of the solution. The positive is simply to love one another as you love yourself (yeah, He is here, in the background for now, but don't worry, we shall talk of God another time (Matt. 22.39)).
It is impossible (or infinately improbable, I'm not sure), however, to get the entire human race to subscribe to this plan. But can you imagine what the world would be like; near to perfection as we can get.
What is the point, if its impossible. So, okay, maybe we can't make the entire world perfect. It was probably never in the cards to begin with. But by loving each other, maybe, just maybe, we can improve life at the micro level; maybe nationally, maybe provincially, maybe municiply, maybe in small groups, maybe at the friends and family level, maybe at the personal level. So try; maybe I am a fool. Trying it out can't hurt that much. And maybe, just maybe, there will be a better life for you because of your love.