Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Our actions

There are many reasons I am reluctant to write on this blog.

One of them being, I often find myself complete erasing the first draft in frustration.

Do you realize what effect you have on the people around you? You probably don't. You probably don't want to know. We dont really understand what we talk about when we talk about being interdependent, or connected, or even the concept of sin, not really. We have no idea that anything we say or do can effect the people around; the closer we are to them, the more we effect them. Parenthood is the clearest example. If your a parent, everything you do and say around your children will have an effect on them, well into their adult life. I know, some of you might disagree; your wrong. And its not just children, its your spouse, your siblings, your parents, its your co-workers, its strangers on the street. You can effect any of them, at anytime, involuntarily changing their lives for the better or for the worse. You can bring hope. You can cause despair. And you will do it at the times your are least aware of the effects of your actions. Off hand remarks. Stupid mistakes. A momentary bought of forgetfulness. It is almost too much to think about. How can we think about the ways we effect the stranger on the street, or remember to keep from saying some well meaning but callous remark? And the short answer is that you can't.
You will screw up your kids. You will make your spouse misrable. You will hurt people without realizing it.
Why?
Because your human.
So why talk about it?
Because even though we cant keep ourselves from hurting others, by loving them, as best we can. By living lives of Love, the best we can. And yes, even if we have screwed up a thousand times, we can always start again. Even if you are rejected. Even if no one believes that you have changed. Love. Even if they give you nothing in return. Love. Even if it seems absurd. Love. To live for only oneself, its a kind of hell. Lonely. At least I think so, and I kind of lived that life once (as I am sure we all have, and we all will live it again, if only for the briefest moments). Even when it felt like I got nothing back, even when it seemed like Love was poured into an abyss to never return, I still was happier then when i lived only for my own desires. And sometimes, when you love with no thought to yourself, you can do that rare thing and make someones lives better. God be with you. I hope this helps.